i was thinking

Hi, Mommy.

...I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few

weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise.

Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got

beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I

will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me

your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we

have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to

be a doctor when I grow up.

You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't

wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was

perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I

will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I

know it already.

Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about

me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that

you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called

wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand

yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did

something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and

your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad

for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It

doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after,

and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I

do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I

don't like it, Mommy.

Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and

you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes,

and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most

beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm

happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait

and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will

make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.

I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your

hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love

you, Mommy.

Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting

funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't

know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry,

Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to

protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good

person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want

us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?

You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?

It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or

touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I

still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when

you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug

me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do

that when you're awake, any more?

I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going

somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a

hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell

you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.

...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't

know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think

something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared,

Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love

you!

Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It

feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!

Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They

told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.

Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you

get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something

wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why

don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want

to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care

about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say

you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and

see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I

want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did

something wrong. I love you!

I love you, Mommy.

Every abortion is just…

One more heart that was stopped.

Two more eyes that will never see.

Two more hands that will never touch.

Two more legs that will never run.

One more mouth that will never speak.

If you’re against abortion, reblog.

weekly sheila

halao peeps..sibuk gile this last two weeks bcoz assignment dtg mcm banjir musim tengkujuh and my final project harus di selesaikan utk proses adjusting..oke we start from study dlu lah ehh...okey for this week jek i need to settle down my project which is utk subject organising skills..as a project director i need to handle this event..lah kan...so sumenye di ats bahu sy skang -_-''..for magazine tugas as a advertising manager harus memastikan bahawa iklan dlm magazine i sudah di terima ...and for feature writing need to write more news br hari tu submit utk penilaian utk column dlm mingguan wanita..what more eh?owh ya2..photo comm plak peranan as a photography bile kne doing a few photoshoot somewhere..tired gile..advertising oke lg..for ETR plak i need doing do business plan for my company..hah ! ini br skali imbas jek korg dpt..cer duk kat tmpt aq bape kali pnye imbas pn still serabai gak !


fullstop utk study jap..take a breath.
.oke utk aktitviti kolej we just finish our merdeka raya celebration but for this moment let picture give talk oke..

my classmates <3


there u go ! my besties smarties @ superbass

restu itu perlu !


this is not for me..tlg pegang kan ajek


p/s one whole day berbaju kurung sgt2 penat and rimas but makanan die sgt la superb doe !
for more picture visited my fb

from heart to hand

halao ! okeyh mari kita mulakan cerita baru utk enrty ini..first of all..babe sekalian?u know what?i really thank to god for what happen to me ! how i survive and how i live with all those sick thing ! oke2 stop and stare can u? 16 september 2011 genaplah 1 tahun hearting wif my encik hati !!! oke2 kesalahan yg cuba diperbaiki ade lah ta mahu lg kesilapan lme berulang..ckuplah kehilangan yang sementara itu..ta mampu lg rse nye ! next is too many version about my love story and ianya sgt pelik sbb version itu disampaikan oleh mereka yang ta kenal sy ! owh tape2 sy ta kisah lgsg ! sbb awk ta taw spe sy yg sbenarnye ! welkkk ! here some note to MEH ! u know what ? slalu igt yg awk sbenarnye x ade utk sy tp ntah lah bile sy sedih ! nme awk yg naik kt hp sy ! pelik ta? our lovestory sgt berbeza dgn yg lain smpi sy pn pelik kite ni loving ke?awk ta pernah kisah pn sy maki awk or what awk siap boleh gelak lg*tetibe teringat ayt awk! *sy ni memg jd penyerap maki hamun awk syg *..kesilapan sy awk trima without no doubt ! that's why i said just go with flow let this feeling playing their part ! okey MEH !

p/s MEH is for My Encik Hati !

eid picture

di pagi hari raya bersama nephew

kesucian wajah bersama sanak saudara

my abg yg semangat memanjat pkok untuk pertunjukkan mercun papan

tentera merah bersiap untuk berjuang(main mercun daa)

bersama sanak saudara ketika bersiar di kuantan

nurul afrina batrisya

baiklah nmpk ta sopan tatkala terlihatkan sotong goreng tepung

sista mista

p/s sambutan raya bersama keluarga yang sgt bermakna seperti lahir semula ke dunia..

Hazama - Cinta Teragung ;)

hari raya entry

mood raya yang bakal menjelang membuat kan si tangan pendek ini sibuk nk clik kat blog die then buat new post!!!sbb nye da semangat tentera udara da untuk bermimpi sambil berangan angan membayangkan bakal memegang senjata bunga api dan mercun untuk berkhidmat membisingkan kawasan kampung dengan dentuman mercun .....justeru itu di kesempatan ini si tangan pendek ini mengucapkan selamat berhari raya kepada muslimin dan muslimat seluruh daerah dunia..ampundan maaf diminta andai pernah terkasar bahasa kpd sesiapa shaja..sesungguhnya ketelanjuran itu itu tdak diduga atau disangka..semoga lebaran tahun ini menciptakan kenangan yang manis lagi gembira untuk kalian semua..

p/s ikut aq lah nk post bile..awl ke lme ke..ade aq kisah..blog aq kan!!

wanita cantik

Ya Allah… Walaupun aku tidak cantik dimata manusia, cukuplah sekadar cantik dihadapan-MU

1)MELUKIS KEKUATAN MELALUI MASALAH.

seorang perempuan itu akan terserlah kekuatannya apabila kita melihat bagaimana dia menghadapi masalah yang datang padanya.sama ada dia lemah mahupun semakin tabah dengan dugaan yang datang padanya.insyaAllah bagi yang kuat dia berjaya memanfaatkan ujian Allah padanya untuk meningkatkan kekuatan dirinya.

2)TERSENYUM SAAT TERTEKAN

percaya atau tidak.kalau benar-benar seorang wanita itu mampu melalui masalah yang dihadapi nya kita orang sekeliling dia tidak mampu meneka apakah perasaan dia yang sebenar.kenapa?kerana terlalu dalam untuk kita memahami perasaan dia yang selalu tersenyum tidak kira sama ada dia ada masalah ataupun sebaliknya.alangkah indahnya kalau aku turut sedemikian rupa.

3)TERTAWA SAAT HATI SEDANG MENANGIS

bukan saja-saja dia tertawa saat hatinya terluka dan menangis.dia bersikap sedemikian kerana dia mahu menjadi seorang yang tabah dan tidak mahu menyusahkan orang sekelilingnya.tambahan pula dia yakin akan pertolongan YANG ESA akan datang kepadanya.dan dia tetap tertawa menutup segala gundah dan kelukaan yang ada kerana keyakinannya terhadap bantuan Allah tidak pernah surut.

4)TABAH DI SAAT TERHINA

setiap yang baik itu sentiasa diuji olehNYA dan salah satu daripadanya ialah penghinaan dari manusia.tapi bagi seorang wanita yang cantik pekertinya semua itu bukan lah halangan untuk dia meneruskan hidupnya malah dia akan berusaha untuk menjadi lebih tabah untuk meghadapi hari yang mendatang.ketabahan yang ada dalam diri dia menjadi perisai untuknya menangkis segala hinaan daripada manusia lain yang tidak pernah mengenal erti ketakutan akan azab YANG ESA.

5)MEMPERSONAKAN KERANA MEMAAFKAN

bukan mudah untuk kita memaafkan kesalahan orang lain terhadap diri kita.lebih-lebih lagi apabila melibatkan kesalahan yang melukakan hati hingga hancur musnah sesebuah kehidupan itu.namun bagi seorang wanita yang cantik itu,kemaafan itu sentiasa diberikan kepada yang pernah melukakan malah menyakitkan hatinya.kerana baginya mereka-meraka inilah yang memberi peluang padanya untuk menjadi lebih tabah.subhanallah.

6)MENGASIHI TANPA BALASAN

kasihnya terhadap suami dan keluarganya memang datang dari hatinya yang ikhlas bukanlah kerana mengharapkan sebarang pembalasan.kerana bagi wanita yang cantik seperti ini kasihnya untuk meraka ini bukannya kasih yang dibuat-buat tetapi kasih yang tulus.malah meraka inilah yang membuatkan dia kuat menahan segala tomahan dan ujian dari YANG ESA.dan kasih seorang wanita yang cantik ini amat sukar untuk kita cari dimana-mana melainkan kasih seorang isteri dan ibu yang solehah.

7)BERTAMBAH KUAT DALAM DOA DAN PENGHARAPAN ILLAHI

dia hanya berharap kepada YANG ESA.dan dia juga tidak pernah mengenal erti lelah dalam terus berdoa tidak kira siang dan malam untuk kehidupan orang yang dia sayang.wanita yang cantik tidak mementingkan diri sendiri kerana mereka lebih mementingkan kepentingan orang yang mereka sayang.suami dan keluarga mereka tidak pernah terlepas dari setiap doa-doa yang dipohon kepada YANG ESA

p/s from up to mu